i swear, i'm not a prophet for psychedelics. anymore. really.

The interruption of tonic sensory inhibition (also known as disinhibition), is what allows the senses to function beyond their normal range in psychedelic sessions. Low doses work best for simply augmenting sensory capacity, but higher doses tend to overload the senses with tangentially recursive phantasmagoria. With the proper mild dose of psychedelics it is true you can become super functioning, enjoying better hearing, better vision, better reflexes, better physical acuity, better muscle flexibility, better mood, and a sense of invincibility.

- from some other blog. what the heck is "tangentially recursive phantasmagoria"? cuz i think i have that.

"Heidegger is the only Western Philosopher who not only intellectually understands but has intuitively grasped Taoist thought." - Chang Chung-Yuan (tho' I have no idea who that is and am thoroughly Western and even Christian, or monotheistic/Abrahamic/Ibrahimic in outlook myself///which is maybe Semitic as well, insofar as Semite contrasts with Indo-European and I think it does though I'm not sure how maybe it's agriculturalist vs pastoralist [an idea I got from 'shroom-and-tumor-head Terence McKenna, don't get me wrong] but more aptly (And this then fitting in the Main Line of my thinking) it's the outlook of the Slaved versus the Slave[drive]r, the Peasant vs the Lord. I am an eternal Peasant.)

Some thoughts on going beyond Nietzsche:
1. embrace Kierkegaard. (and by extension, existention--

(The parable of Nietzsche's life scares me, and reminds me how I'm inexorably headed for darkness and hell. None of which bothers me, ultimately, as much as it should bother you!)

To elaborate on concept above (Peasant vs Lord):
Peasant faiths-- Sh'ia, Mandean, Yazdi, Zoroastrian, Sikh, Hindu, Buddhist, Taoist, animist

Lord-- Sunni, Muslim, Jewish, Christian. wow three faiths, exciting. (I guess this is like Nietzsche's evocation of Christianity as "slave morality" except with sociological exactness -- only lords need to go to a church to learn about slave morality.)

The harder my life gets, the more optimistic the world becomes about my abilities.

Schedule

It goes like this:

• 5 a.m. - get up. [not MWF, on those days just leave the house, or eat breakfast first:] Meditate for 5 minutes in room, on pillows - breath 10 seconds in, breath 10 seconds out. Eat breakfast. Read in the front parlor in the sun (when the sun is up). (Can also read other places and other things -- like on the internet. Actually, check messageboard on Blackboard daily after breakfast. Then play Riven until it becomes uncomfortable to do so. Actually, play Riven first. Then go on Blackboard.) TTh -- leave house at 6:30 a.m. to ride bike to school. Geology until 10:30 a.m. Go do geology homework and chapter questions, get whatever help you need on math (at least once a week stop in), and read lit text and go on to blackboard to join discussion and type rough drafts of the LMs.) (Saturday -- leave house after lunch to go and work on Literature some more - check out book again, read stories again. Go on blackboard to finish LMs. [Or stay home and do it at home.] -- I work on Geology at school only, on Mathematics at home only, and Literature both.)
  
• 12:30 p.m. - lunch. (also I read the newspaper while eating). Go into sun room and use laptop (do chapter test for geology after doing homework for that chapter). Can do math homework too.
  
• 6:30 p.m. - supper. Now I actually watch television: Food Network, or basically Fox, or maybe Family Guy, with exceptions for a few shows such as Man vs. Wild and some others that haven't been on so long due to the writers' strike, I've forgotten about them. Though they're back on now, I guess. Except for the ones that aren't. When I read New York Times articles about this, I feel so embarrassed for Hollywood ("you're making a scene"). TV watching from 6 to 9 is usually downstairs, in my aunt's office, where I feel safe. (Do math homework during commercials or not-want-to-watch programming)
  
• 8 p.m. - might switch to Comedy Central here.
  
• 9 p.m. - might switch to DVDs here. Go upstairs usually, anyway, to the living room.
  
• When I'm sleepy - read a few minutes of whatever book I'm reading, draw a bath. Hit the sack. If I have been lying awake for 20 minutes on the clock, I get out of bed and play Internet Backgammon, I guess.

Addendum: I may take Fridays off, to work on literature (because I need an empty house to think in), and then go to work on Saturdays, instead. Well, yeah, I have to do this. As long as I can read the stories online, I'll be OK (meaning I won't have to go to school to read them). And I would take Wednesdays off, but I have to be home alone. So, whenever I can be home alone. But Friday works better because it's closer to the weekend and I will have done more thinking and discussing about the stories.

Now, for a new post...

I may not be a neocon anymore, but I've decided that when it comes to the arts, it is quite uncool to turn anywhere other than neoconservative opinion. This applies to such publications as the Wall Street Journal and the New Criterion. I suppose it would also apply to the National Review, tho' that's less likely seeing as it's strictly a journal of opinion. Still, better than the New Republic, I should think. Or no? I don't. There may be some sort of split here -- if it's got politics right, it doesn't have the arts right, and vice-a versa.

The Nation is a liberal journal. (What -- socialist? Marxist? Can you believe this shit?)
[EDIT: I'm totally socialist now. ? I just don't(can't) let it define my identity.]
The New Republic is a moderate journal. (Generally considered neoliberal I suppose.) Perhaps center-left is better terminology.
The National Review is a conservative journal. (Also, nowadays neocon, but with a trad streak, though not to be found in Jonah Goldberg's columns.)

More outre would be the various Communist, anarchist (such as Anarchy: A Journal of Desire Armed, which depending on its stance could be considered to be on the left or simply not on there at all) and paleoconservative (up-and-coming category, including the new- [American Conservative] and the old-fashioned [Chronicles]...it isn't fair to say that this movement is indebted to Hayek, but it is).

Also established, and not outre at all, are the neo-libertarian (as opposed to paleo-libertarian, which is frequently indistinguishable from paleocon...I suppose the latter is who writes in print and the former is who writes on the Internet) -- Reason, and the neoconservative (Commentary, The Weekly Standard, etc.).

But what I was saying was that I look for my arts coverage in the conservative world, I guess.

I should point out, that in the post from a few days ago, where I said "Japanese culture" allows you to sit on a chair (or even lay flat on your back) -- it was in reference to zazen, or sitting meditation.

Yea.

God, I don't know...

I'm too embarrassed by what I wrote yesterday to even read it.